Christmas Spirit

The Christmas spirit is always something that most people have during this time of the year. People are more willing to give and share then they are any other time of the year. We aren't selfish, but some of us don't get to enjoy the Holidays as good as some people do. Its sad to know that some families wont be together this Holiday as their parent might be away serving our nation or might have passed away. We all have someone that is not going to be with us this Holiday and it makes us sad and lonely wondering where they are or what they are doing. It might comfort us to know that they are doing what ever they can to be back with us but, there are other things to worry about at times. When we wake up Christmas morning we all want to get presents from people but, we also have to remember why we celebrate Christmas. Is it really because we want gifts, or is there something more to it? We all know the story of Jesus and being born in Bethlehem. We should thank him for everything he does for us and we should spread the Christmas spirit to everyone not just our family and friends but strangers we meet along the way. Merry Christmas to everyone and may your hearts be filled with love and thanks for everything we have!!!!!

being lonely

Every night I wish I had that special someone by my side. I wish that we could be togetherm but we aren't. i think about you and the things I wish we could do together. I don't go a day without thinking about you and me together forever, but why is it taking you forever to realize that we were meant to be? I hate how you wondering why heart brake happens to you after every girl you had. When the perfect girl is right in front of you, but i will continue waiting for you, I will not give up on you because i know in my heart we will be together someday! So if being lonely night after night that is the pain i will endore for you. i know that someday when i wake up you will be right there beside me and that is worth waiting for! I just hope you know how long i have waited for you and how much i do love and care for you and you only!

Be Heard

who do you try to get someones attention? Do you yell or scream or just say their name? Well lately it feels like no one stops and listens to what I have to say. I mean how hard is it to stop what your doing just to listen to someone elses problems instead of your own, must be really hard. I like to be honest with people when I'm trying to tell them that something is worng or that things are not just going my way, like they usually do yea right. People can be really mean and rude at times but, other times you find out that the best thing in life are the people who have always been there for you, and I am so thankful for them. I wish that sometimes they would just stop and listen to me when I'm trying to tell them something. I want our relationship to be stronger than that. I wnat to be able to talk to them about everything and anything. Why is that so hard people? Is it because I'm a hard person to talk to or what?

Every thing is okay

Right know I don't know what to say, but I just want to tell everyone that I am fine and that I am in one of the best places in my life right know, besides the fact that the guy I like doesn't like me but o well. Life doesn't have to be prefct every minute of every day it just has to be barable for me and my friends. The school year is almost over and summer will soon me here. I hope I find a job, but if I don't it gives me more time to enjoy the summer and be with friends. I do love the longer days we get, but I don't like the hot weather. My friends alsways have big plans for the summer, but I don't, I just want to hang out and do what ever I want to do over the summer. Everything will be okay no matter what happens because we are strong and we are able to do anything threw God and his power. i hope that the right person does come along for me and does make my life a little better, but I am not totally worried about that yet. I want to focuse on school and college and my dreams and things I want to do with my future!

I DID IT!!!!!

I have finally defeated what I thought was never going to happen. I am still in shock that I acctually did something that is worht wilded for once. I feel like I can do whatever I set my mind to know and I know there will be more times in my life when I will not be able to defeat something right away but if I try hard I know I can.

The Future

Do you ever think about the future and what it holds for you and everyone else that in your life know. Do you ever think about that the people that are in your life know will still be there when you grow older and change along the way? Like your classmates or your friends from church or from a club u go to, do u think u will still know them or even still talk to them after you leave or gradurate. I hope that the people that are in my life know will always be in my life when I am older. They give me wisdom and strength to do things I never thought I could do. I am happy with the people in my life know, but I think I want to open up to more people and learn what other type of people there are out in this big world. I want to explore the world and find who I am really supose to be not something I think I am right know but what God has planned for me and the rest of the people in my life. I know that it is sometimes hard to follow God and trust me I have had my times when I didn't trust God, but I am working on changing that Know that I know what is in store for me.....

Failure

Sometimes you just have to face the fact that there will always be time in your life when you wont quit conquer it, But thats is okay. It just means that when faiure comes you shouldn't let it get you down, just get back up and do it again. I know that it seems like you have to try a couple of times before you actually can conquer it, but trust me you will and you can! No matter what life throws at you, you can decide to make the bst out of it or let it get you so down that you can't being yourself back up. Its your choice, you can let life defeat you or you can fight back with as much energy as you possible can. Stay Strong is my new saying, and hope i can always live up to it.

My Dream

I hope that someday I can actually do something with my life and not just waste time worring about the past. I do have plans for my life, theres just a big long list that I hope to do before I die or before God comes back which ever comes first. I want to atually make a mark on histroy, I want to be known for something. I don't want to be just another person who dies and no one remembers. I plan to live everyday to the fullest and take risk even when times feels hard and there is no other way I will still make the best of it, to help fufuill my future. Maybe there was a reason I was put on this earth, and I hope I can fufill that, rather than just take up space. I will do my best no matter what, and I will take the next step up the hill to reach the top.

Sometimes being lonely sucks but other times its the bst think that can happen to you

Regrets

My only regret in life is not spending more time with you. I wish that we could be tgether right know and forever and always. I love you, I have always loved since the day i meet you, I knew we were meant to be together but I guess you don't feel the same. I just hope that you told me the truth be I left so you don't ever question yourself waht could of been? I hope that some day when we see each other we will smile and say we could have been together but things change and know were with someone else that really loves you for being you. I will always have that special place in my heart for you and I hope that we will always be friends even if we can't ever be more than that. I want you to know I will always be there for you even, if I'm far away, i will still be there in spirit. I love and I don't regret telling you I loved you but, I do regret not telling you sooner!!!!!!

The Next Chapter

So I can not wait till this school year is over, I plan on having a great summer and then changing things all up and leaving the stupid school I go to know and going to a new one. I am so excited and scared but I believe that this is the next chapter in my life that i need to do. I can't wait to make new friends and try new things, I am sorta weird that I might change but if I do I hope its for better and not worse. I am taking a step out of my comfort zone to do something that I thought I could never do. May I have the strenght to continue to take steps even when I am the only one stepping out. May all my friends still be there for me and if they are my true friends they will still be there for me. I love them all and hope that they understand, this is the time when you find out who your real friends are and aren't...

Dieing

I know i've been writing alot about death but, i have reasons for doing so. My step dad has cancer and i just wanted to write about the time i have with him. He is the one person in this world that i would trust with all my secrets and my life. He is one of the best people i know. I love him like he was my own father, he treats me just like his own. Its sad to think that he wont probably be here this time next year. But i'm telling myself that he will be, which makes it harder on myself in the long run. I pray to God everuy night that he will get better and that he will do what he thinks is best. I love my stepdad but if God decsides to take him i wont be mad with God because there is a reason for everything that he does. I will treasure the time i do have with him and remember the good times we had together over the past couple of years, may God bless him and my family......

LOVE

LOVE it's such a easy word to say but does it really exsist. I have come to fall in love with this one person who means alot to me and I don't know if he even consideres me a lover or not. I love taking that extra step to find out but, not everything you take a risk on turns out to be a good thing. Maybe tgaking the courage to stand up for yourself is a good thing always but what you stand up for can be good and bad. I hope to finbd that person who i will love forever or till i die which ever one comes first but no matter what I will always love you and be here for you even when you are not with me, I will always fill that special way about you. I LOVE YOU  and hope to see you soon.

Two of ME

Sometimes I feel like theres two of me and that I act like a totally different person around people
I know and people I don't like. I hate not being able to show people the real me and not being able to have fun and comfortable around people I care about. Why is that? I want to show people my real self but don't know how, I'm afraid they wouldn't except me or think i'm woerd or swomething. I want to go to public school next year but afraid about  going somewhere new and learning how things operate. I am so confused and don't know what to do. I hope that I figure things out soon and that my family will help me make the final decision.

Life or Death

Sometimes people die because  they have to others because they want too. People do things to their own bodys so the consequences are their falult not someone elses.Then people die or have to live with the chooses they made in the pass thht will effect their future and sometimes ntats not good....We have to live with the chooses we made from when we were young and sometimes we don't have to live with the consequences of our past but, sooner or later the past will catch up with you and you will realize that you messed up big time. We donh't always have to live with the choosoes we made  from when we were young if we try to make the right chooses then we wouldn't have to live with the conseqeunces of our past.

Nightmares of the Past

Do you  ever feel like you can't run away from your past and that know matter how fast you run you can't get rid of the terrible memories that happened back then. I 've been having these nightmares and I don't know how to get rid of them, every where i look it reminds me of my past. I haven't been able to tell people what really happened many years ago and i don't think i will be able to ever. I think I should though before it really hurts my relationship with someonhe I really care about. Please give me the strength to do so if i really need too.

Reasons for Living

• My Family
• My Friends
• My Volleyball Team
• My Great Guitar Teacher
• My Heros
• My Idols
• To see what the Future holds for me!

The End Times

what will happen in the end? This is a qsuestion that alot of people ask themselves, some would say oh well were going to die and thats it and some say we will go to heaven or hell, but for real we don't really know unless we have died and came back to life ourselves. I am for sure I will find out and get back to you on that..So what do you think will happen in the end times, will we all die and just become dust or ist here more to it? I am sure there is more to it then just death...

Book Title

so I've been writing this book and I think its comming along quiet well, I just came up with a perect ending and I think it would be a good place to stop the book, it keeps the reading wondering what happens next I can't wait to see if it will get published....I am sorta confused about a title though, I need a really good one but I have no idead....maybe I could get some help for the worldwide web...that would be nice.