Death is Closer then u think

I just wanna die right Now!!!Life sucks and there is no reason to continue to live on, everyday it gets worse!!! Nothing goes right and I can't ever be happy. I hate myself and everyone around me, I can't pretend to be happy and I wont act like everything is okay, because it's not! Life is never happy any more and everyday I just wanna die even more...I just can't bring myself to do it. I'm such a terrible person so why not end my life and see what comes after it. No one truly loves me and the people that I thought did leave me any ways! I hate everything about me and my life and I can't change it so why try! My dreams will never come true and my life will never be happy again! I hate life so why not end it, you know! I have no reasons know to not end my life, things aren't ever going to get better, but I need to push myself a little further and just kill myself already!!!I can't handle another day like this and I don't need to put up with this Shit any more, nobody has any idea what I go through so don't even try and understand because you don't so just let me kill myself and everyone will be happier and I think the world will be a much happier place without me!! Don't try to change my mind because it wont work and I wont listen to you any ways so don't even try! So goodbye to all the people in this shitty world and I hope that one day you can have the strength to do what I am going to do!!!