being lonely

Every night I wish I had that special someone by my side. I wish that we could be togetherm but we aren't. i think about you and the things I wish we could do together. I don't go a day without thinking about you and me together forever, but why is it taking you forever to realize that we were meant to be? I hate how you wondering why heart brake happens to you after every girl you had. When the perfect girl is right in front of you, but i will continue waiting for you, I will not give up on you because i know in my heart we will be together someday! So if being lonely night after night that is the pain i will endore for you. i know that someday when i wake up you will be right there beside me and that is worth waiting for! I just hope you know how long i have waited for you and how much i do love and care for you and you only!

Be Heard

who do you try to get someones attention? Do you yell or scream or just say their name? Well lately it feels like no one stops and listens to what I have to say. I mean how hard is it to stop what your doing just to listen to someone elses problems instead of your own, must be really hard. I like to be honest with people when I'm trying to tell them that something is worng or that things are not just going my way, like they usually do yea right. People can be really mean and rude at times but, other times you find out that the best thing in life are the people who have always been there for you, and I am so thankful for them. I wish that sometimes they would just stop and listen to me when I'm trying to tell them something. I want our relationship to be stronger than that. I wnat to be able to talk to them about everything and anything. Why is that so hard people? Is it because I'm a hard person to talk to or what?

Every thing is okay

Right know I don't know what to say, but I just want to tell everyone that I am fine and that I am in one of the best places in my life right know, besides the fact that the guy I like doesn't like me but o well. Life doesn't have to be prefct every minute of every day it just has to be barable for me and my friends. The school year is almost over and summer will soon me here. I hope I find a job, but if I don't it gives me more time to enjoy the summer and be with friends. I do love the longer days we get, but I don't like the hot weather. My friends alsways have big plans for the summer, but I don't, I just want to hang out and do what ever I want to do over the summer. Everything will be okay no matter what happens because we are strong and we are able to do anything threw God and his power. i hope that the right person does come along for me and does make my life a little better, but I am not totally worried about that yet. I want to focuse on school and college and my dreams and things I want to do with my future!

I DID IT!!!!!

I have finally defeated what I thought was never going to happen. I am still in shock that I acctually did something that is worht wilded for once. I feel like I can do whatever I set my mind to know and I know there will be more times in my life when I will not be able to defeat something right away but if I try hard I know I can.

The Future

Do you ever think about the future and what it holds for you and everyone else that in your life know. Do you ever think about that the people that are in your life know will still be there when you grow older and change along the way? Like your classmates or your friends from church or from a club u go to, do u think u will still know them or even still talk to them after you leave or gradurate. I hope that the people that are in my life know will always be in my life when I am older. They give me wisdom and strength to do things I never thought I could do. I am happy with the people in my life know, but I think I want to open up to more people and learn what other type of people there are out in this big world. I want to explore the world and find who I am really supose to be not something I think I am right know but what God has planned for me and the rest of the people in my life. I know that it is sometimes hard to follow God and trust me I have had my times when I didn't trust God, but I am working on changing that Know that I know what is in store for me.....